she,my beloved

Today is the first day of the time off period between the both of us, i never knew it was so difficult to go by a day without val, i was counting down every min till 1130pm so i would be able to call her, looking at my hp at almost any slightest vibration felt by my subconscious mind, i miss her so much, memories of us in germany, krabi the times we shared just flashed in and out of my head, gosh,, everytime that happens i just close my eyes and ask God to take my emotions away, i just wanna put this whole relationship into God's hand, " Daddy God, anoint me and val with wisdom so that we will know wat we can do, daddy God, restore this relationship, val really means a world to me" .More often than not, this was my prayer, i just wish God will plant seeds of hope in her so that somehow things will turn ard. i readlised writing on this blog helps put my mind at rest, now i know why val and her gal pals like to blg so much, cos it just gives u an avenue to let out all that is vented up inside. gosh somehow i cant believe all these are happening, seemed like a bad nightmare that i wanna wake up from, and when i wake up, i wish my princess is still with me... sigh... pls oh opls... i just hope someone would tell me that this was all a bad joke..... perhaps just a plot 2 weeks before my bday... welll i do hope come two weeks, things would be different.... i trust u God... daddy.. i trust u to make things turn for the good for me and val...

perhaps the best verse of the day is psalms 121, "i lift up my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from? my help comes from the lord, the maker of heaven and earth, he will not let my foot slip, he who watches over you will not slumber... The Lord watches over you- the Lord is your shade at your right hand, the sun will not harm u by day nor by night,the Lord will keep u fromm all ham,he will watch over ure life, the Lord watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore....

I love u my dear princess... wish u are here right now... hugs...