Yet another Monday

Guess some words cant be expressed via MSN. i said something over MSN, and Al reacted/commented bout it. To be honest, the word i use sounded rather crude. Guess it isnt exactly pleasing to the ears. Al's perfectly fine with it. I took it the wrong way. The way he said it on MSN made it seem as tho he was repremanding me.

I hate it when people comment on the way i speak the way i do things or walk or eat or anything!! Always feel that i am who i am.. BUT i do act according to circumstances too larr. When im with my friends/family/loved ones, i just wana behave the way i am. Without pretense. Its so uptight in the corp world, where everyone basically acts. i can act too. Im good at it infact. (al says i play mind games tho i INSIST i dont! haha).. Dont see a point in acting infront of my closest person tho.

Felt as tho he was rejecting me and the way i speak. honestly if he minds, i would hold my tongue and try to speak in a prim n propper way.. i can always tryyy... but that wont be me anymore. it'll be something like a mutated val... or.. retarded val... or speech impairment val.. something like that. haha... But we sorta cleared the air.. He doesnt mind me being the way i am, infact he likes it! and im really thankful.. *sigh of relief* i dont curse and swear. i just tend to be more vocal and my words tend to be carry more vocality and its usually a lil mmm... non conventional? baHhh... Ive gotta speak prim n propper to customers the whole day.. cant i just let loose a lil?? =( Nevertheless, Al doesnt mind, al likes it.. soooo val's happy with it =) end of story! hahaha

Ohhhh!! al sent me an E-card today! soooo sweet of him!!!! its always me sending ecards, its nice to receive one for a change. The card's bout missing me through every weather.. =) **melts** ohh what's more! he changed his MSN pic to a pic of OURS! WOW!!!!! ok ok.. that may be extremely normal for everyone else.. but NO! it means a hell lot to me.. no guy has ever done that!!!! his msn nick has got "val" his photo has got "val"... he really isnt ashamed 2 show me to everyone on his contacts.. hope he understands that by doing that, he really is gona exit from bachelorhood. =P i feel so blissed, i feel so happpieeee, i feel, complete.

Complete's prolly the best word to describe how i feel when ive got Al in my life.. I have happy/sad/anxious/teary times but never once did i feel lonely. i feel as tho my life has been made full.. And with god in our lives... all things are made better! =)

Its raining heavily here... Just witnessed the beauty and power of nature..... the power of god, the creator. Stood by the balcony witnessing it all... First it was all still. then the leaves started rustling.... the skys turned orangey, trees were swaying to and fro in unison... then the clouds came... rain trickled down... came in pours... wind whistled pass my ears.. felt a chill... spashed a lil on my face... wind kept hounding... and i started feeling chilly.. There were a couple of thoughts in my mind.... It must have took a mighty creator to come up with such feat... It was beautiful to simply watch nature do it's "stunt"... Also wondered if it was just as cold and chilly in germany now.. If it was... is al feeling cold?? Wished al was right here with me, hugging me, and we'd be watching the storm go by together... in each other's warmth.. We'd be together soon enough..

Thank you god, for creating such a wonderful world, thank you god for giving me Al, Thank you god for keeping us together, Thank you god for allowing me to bring in the clothes in time so mummy wont have to wash it again, Thank you god for the many many things which ive taken forgranted and never given thanks

Gona call al soon.. hope he's home =)