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Again, i have no title in mind, i m quite officially on the tip of mild depression... really cant seem to appreciate things ard Germany no more... or should i say, absolutely no desir watsoever. My friend told me its a beautiful weather, but my reply was. "so wat, no one to share with, my gf is in sg, no point" its has been a standard ans these days... so much so everyone prob thinks i m a love sick puppy. But i think i just miss my gf badly, much badly than all things, i miss my family too, i miss my friends, i miss the freedom to roam and do watever i want. I know its contrary, but the language barrier is slowing draining lifeforce out of me, tho i m speaking better german than i could possibly imagine. i just could get over there i m just one singaporean in this big stuttgart.. where the hell is all the singaporeans.. i m so so frustrated with being here.. having to speak in a stupid accent, i wanna speak my language.. i wanna hold my sweetie's hand and walk down town or down the beach.. for heaven's sake, we are only but two months old.. i wish i had more time to be with her.. more time to tell her in the face i love.. more time to just sit beside her.. or walk beside her.. just feelin her close by my side...

i sat on my fave chair again this morning... i just look at val... on my desktop... i cant believe how sweet she look.. i m glad she is kinda happy with her life now, as i look at her more and more.. i just feel so so much for her... tots flashed in my mind, i was thinkig wat she is doin now.. or is she still sleepin... i just wanan be there to stroke her beautiful hair and caress her smooth silky skin...

i do appreciate her.. honestly... thats y all these blogs are for.. for me to tell her my feelings.. for me to tell her how much she meant to me and i really appreciate and m so so thankful for her to call me each night to just make me ´breathe a lil easier at night...

i shut down the com.. telling her i love her... places my finger on screen but all i rub off was dust.. ha...wat a joke... i put on my jacket and prepared to leave when i recall a dream i had.. i realise i was holdin her hand in the dream... amidst a service in church i guess.. i believe we can go a long way...

i really think val is the best gf one really can have.. she is thoughtful understanding and playful too, and she is sweet, confident thats wat i like... smart too and i pretty damn sure street smart too.. i just love her being her.. she makes me feel wholesome.. life is full of blossoming flowers again.. ha.. perhaps the weather today could be indeed wonderful..


I love u babe, forever and ever,.........babe.