935am

Again, i have no title in mind, i m quite officially on the tip of mild depression... really cant seem to appreciate things ard Germany no more... or should i say, absolutely no desir watsoever. My friend told me its a beautiful weather, but my reply was. "so wat, no one to share with, my gf is in sg, no point" its has been a standard ans these days... so much so everyone prob thinks i m a love sick puppy. But i think i just miss my gf badly, much badly than all things, i miss my family too, i miss my friends, i miss the freedom to roam and do watever i want. I know its contrary, but the language barrier is slowing draining lifeforce out of me, tho i m speaking better german than i could possibly imagine. i just could get over there i m just one singaporean in this big stuttgart.. where the hell is all the singaporeans.. i m so so frustrated with being here.. having to speak in a stupid accent, i wanna speak my language.. i wanna hold my sweetie's hand and walk down town or down the beach.. for heaven's sake, we are only but two months old.. i wish i had more time to be with her.. more time to tell her in the face i love.. more time to just sit beside her.. or walk beside her.. just feelin her close by my side...

i sat on my fave chair again this morning... i just look at val... on my desktop... i cant believe how sweet she look.. i m glad she is kinda happy with her life now, as i look at her more and more.. i just feel so so much for her... tots flashed in my mind, i was thinkig wat she is doin now.. or is she still sleepin... i just wanan be there to stroke her beautiful hair and caress her smooth silky skin...

i do appreciate her.. honestly... thats y all these blogs are for.. for me to tell her my feelings.. for me to tell her how much she meant to me and i really appreciate and m so so thankful for her to call me each night to just make me ´breathe a lil easier at night...

i shut down the com.. telling her i love her... places my finger on screen but all i rub off was dust.. ha...wat a joke... i put on my jacket and prepared to leave when i recall a dream i had.. i realise i was holdin her hand in the dream... amidst a service in church i guess.. i believe we can go a long way...

i really think val is the best gf one really can have.. she is thoughtful understanding and playful too, and she is sweet, confident thats wat i like... smart too and i pretty damn sure street smart too.. i just love her being her.. she makes me feel wholesome.. life is full of blossoming flowers again.. ha.. perhaps the weather today could be indeed wonderful..


I love u babe, forever and ever,.........babe.

Sweeeetie Al

A sweet day... Met up with Xinhui for lunch and to catch up.. havent met her for the longest time... went to walk arnd on my own afterwhich... While i was tryin on a top at fareast.. i saw al's message. Before i got to reply, he rang up =) i gota admit tt i lost track of time. Al wasnt mad at me for not replying, and he was glad i was enjoying myself shopping! hung up after a brief chat as i was STILL in the midst of changing. The phone Rang again...

It was al...

He called just to say.............. "I love you darling"!
AWwwww.. he called just to say that... because he forgot to say earlier! =)

Aint he sweeeeeet!?!?!?!?!?!

i related what happened to the sales girl.. cuz i was really beaming with joy! They all agreed that he's the sweetest thing ever! they even asked where i "found" sucha bf! heh.. *proud* one and only one. and MINE!

Went to work... and chatted with him online here n there... even when he said he's gona be gone for awhile.. im constantly logging on and off, checking if he's back. i just miss him terribly!!!! like 1/2 way tru a call.. id just wana talk 2 him n feel his presence! =) my al.... i love my al....

Al said soemthing bout me bein prettier day by day... haha.. its all in his mind.. or maybe its my facial mask, health supplement? facial prod? ... nah.... its god's blessings!!! =)

after i got home.. was really really tired... and he even put up with my short bout of nonsense! hehehe.. i get cranky when im tired lar.. and he even managed 2 coax me into smiling! =)

Aint he a great guy!?
HE SURE IS! and he's mine!.. im so proud...

its 623am singapore time...

Gosh darl.. this is the best night ever... finally i have internet in my room and i can finally tok to u as long as i want.. hurr... glad u like the present i got u.. haha but more to come.. so dun be too happy first k haha.. gosh i m beat. hah have been surfing till pretty late.. but the temptation of the internet is just too strong considering i m so depraved of it at my apartment.. well i hope u are havin the sweetest dream ever.. cos i m gonna,,, sweetie.. i just wanna wish u a nice day later.. and i know u will enjoy ure day.. cos its gonna be blessed!!...

I love u darling... hmmm actually i m still wondering if u are serious about me havin to train up... i mean i will hha.. but i hope u dun think my bod sucks dun u haha... pls pls God hhaha.. make her say no ahaah... well i think i m maintainin it only.. but its gonna be real mean trainong when i come back k.. im so deprived of gym swim and so many things... i m just gonna do so many things wit hu when i come back.. but for now prob only gotta wait.. wow its pretty cold here.. its raining again.. every night gosh man... sweetie i wish t osnuggle with u in bed but my beds empty! haha...

alright.. i cant wait for time to pass faster and faster.. and yes i m counting my used toiler rolls and washmachine coins,, dun laugh k... they are effectively one hahah...

Hope u will be bless by the book i got u... its gd read tho i never read it yet haha...

i love u sweetie.. and yes its true.. i miss u like crzy.. its getting worst everyday.. belieeve me k... u are my precious.. all the time...

gonna go off to sleep nw.. thks for stayin up earlier and put up wif my nonsence haha... muuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaakkkkkkksss..

u are the prettiest and sweetest sweetie...hee

Dear Al

Dearest Al,

Thank you for your present today =) Thanks for goin through all the trouble to get yiwei to get me the present. listening to the sermon now.. its always so much nicer to hear it over the player than through earphones.

I love you hon.....

Know you miss home.... and u feel u're there for a tad too long. **huGGz** time flies.. hey! its sunday already and guess what its 16 more weeks left! go count your toilet rolls, your laundry coins etc =) **grinz**

A short one for now..... Reallly gotta do work.. i know u'd understand.


Love,
Your Val

10:12am

Poetic entry, ha i would love to write something worthy of publishing, i realise i really enjoy writing, penning my thoughts anonymously in this virtual world, where anyone, at anytime of the day, across timezones could have access to this post. It is amazing that there are even time zones.. i still m amazed by the fact that ppl can communicate between time lines.. "do ppl ever get jet lags hahah" i was watching stephan hawking's documentary about space and black holes and all and i realise science has unending possibilities, the world of physics is huge beyond anyone imagination yet small enuf to be explre at my home's backyard.. some ppl prob dun know wat i m tokin about but these are the reasons y i first wanted to an astronomer. Now, being a mechanical engineer, i work with the very gist of elementary element, thinking and designing how things should work. All these training, moulds me into the kind of analytical person i m. when i comes to relationships, i do use the same analytical mindset on it. But, love always defíes reasoning, no amt of analysis will gurantee u a success in ure love life hence so i learnt... ppl may ask me.. so how to do win a gal's heart.. or how do u even charm a gal and make her think u are a potential in the first place? my answer my friends, is, there is simply no standard formula, u gotta be in the right place and in the right time, its never how u look or how u present ureself, sure sure.. all these are a bonus but one thing is even more important than all these... it is the sincerity.. so how? again someone ask... i cant answer u on that.. i can only say, it occurs when ure eyes meet her eyes and her eyes reads ures.. and she gets to look inside ure soul and know something special is brewing.. i often hear ppl sayin the eyes are the doors to ure soul.. and somehow i think its true.. psychologists can determined whether someone is lying by looking at the movement and dirction of his eyes.. and so this roves a point to a certain degree.

my eyes met valerie eyes for the first time that fateful day... i look into her eyes and she did the same.. i knew she was special.. but i didnt know wat.. let alone did i pursue.. i just let it rest cos i tot i never see her again... as the story goes.. i guess God place a seed in her heart just as he did in mine and yap.. the r/s blossomed.. and today i m still a firm believer of looking thru the eyes and i love to look and val's eyes and tell her i love her.. i hope i can continue to do it in the near future to come and so on.. she is a very important person in my life now.. i live and breath to see her and to hear her.. she is the love of my life...like i have said earlier.. love knows no reasoning.. hence i love her wo reason... i love her unconditionally.. i respect her and i want to take care of her.. she can do watever she please... as long she is happy... i m happy... honestly i put her really in the first place.. above all.. and i think when we finally reunited on dec the 18th, i will run towards her with joy in my heart and hug her.. whisper in her ear that i love her.. ever ever more... and thats love in its most elementary, u just wanna take care and do everything u can to make someone happy... there is no why.. wat.. how come.... thats is only how? how u want to do it.. and when someone comes along and ask me again wats love.. i tell him.. love is loving val.. love is wat u see in my r/s and love is wat u get in this r/s.. which is..........unconditional....

sweetie my heart yearns for u

I love you

Missing Al. as usual.

Trying to tidy my data, Syncronizing my PDA with my Laptop, clearing emails... n suddenly.. i viewed some pix in my pda... as i played my fave song by chance. As the song played, pix of al and myself flashed pass my PDA.. The memories and feelings of that very first date we had flashed pass...

The distance and the time apart made me miss him so much more. This period of time without him physically by my side, al created a vision for me, a life i'd want so badly that id give up almost anything to have it. I looked too far ahead, to the extend that i may have lost track of reality... At the same time, forgot my past. Our past. I forgot the sweet memories we shared. Not that things arent sweet and loving now, just that its always good that we never ever forget how things started. Starting with an end in mind... and not neglecting the process... thats how i want this relationship to be. That's how it will be.

So.. as i was saying... the pictures flashed pass... and i cant help but smile sweetly at the memory of it all. I love him. He will be in my life from now on.. and that's such a blessing! =) Im not as poetic and i cant write as well as al does... Im just gona work hard for this r/s, treat him right, and take care of him.. Shower him with unconditional love.. =)

I said it time and time again... i dont need your $$ i need your love... that's all i ever ever need. I already have ur love hon.. so u dont need to give me $$ for anything. You my dear, already are a dream come true. Id be loving you ... From now ... till i can love no more! *huGGz!!**

When we're at germany, i'd take lots n lots n lots of pretty shots!!! and when we're back, id be making a BEAUTIFUL scrapbook! =) miss my AL so much! gona call him!

val, the love of my life...

whenever i look at val thru the eyes of my webcam, i just canot help but just admire her pouty pretty lil face, i think she is a wonderful gal, wonderful person, why?? one may asked.. wats so great about her? to these questions... here is my answer... the fact she desires to be the perfect gf,,, the fact she wants to shower all her love on me... the very fact that she is just my gal who wants to treat her bf right in everyway and give wat he wants... all these do come wif a price.... the price of sacrificing herself for the sake of me....and i appreciate every facet of that... the very rudimentary element of it and i truly love her for loving me with her selfless love and her continual attempts to do it. i always know that i m the kinda guy who to keep my relationships fun all the time... yes there is time to be serious, but all in all i want a r/s that lets me be the kind of person everyone sees me as.. not the kinda guy who changes 360degrees once my gf appear... not the kinda guy who could make ppl laugh and not a tad able to do it in front of his gal... not the kinda guy who can make concise decisions in front of ppl, let alone speak confidently in crowds but becomes a quiet reserved, tryin to act all so mature guy in front of his gal.... if u are lost at this point of time haha.. dun worry... just know tat val allowme to be who i m... i see myself in her.. i see myself embracin her and i see her fingerprints all over every part of my life... and i m loving every moment of it... she told me tht she could be herself too.. and i m very glad she does too.. cos being herself is important to her.. and likewise myself.

i just like to observe val as she walks as she speaks and all.. i feel so so so so pround every time i just look at her...i truly think pure love transcends all understanding.. and i know ours is one cos i just cant help nor understand y i feel so so so so so immensely honored to be her chosen one... when i was yunger i always tot gals like val are so called "unreachables". y?? haha val knows how to carry herself so well, she dresses so well( dunno y she complain no clothes haha)... she is confident to speak her mind... there i m just another ave joe on the streets just like a million other guys.. i bet 1000dollars tat when i walk over to her to ask.. "hi my name is alvin, u llok great.. may i know ure name?? " i tell u.. she will prob laugh until she roll ard the room and back and say.."didi, come back 10yrs, maybe.. Maybe.. i will consider.. hahahaha" then whisper to her friend "fat hope ah" haha.. there m i.. dejected and all.. would then prob kknow my place ........

when all these didnt happen.. the truth is val is my gal... now!! i m just thankful that i was even able to be her friend... it was lottery when i got her number.... it was the nine heavens when she became my gf... and heaven knows how happy i will be when she is offically married to me.. and become mrs valerie kang... (i stared at this title for a while, it felt so right and pleasant and sweet and relief that she is now my wife, no one can steal haha)

gosh sweetie, if u gonna ask me.. are u really sure.. really really sure? (her fave qns) i m gonna nod my head so many times and say.. i have never been so sure.... look no further val... i will not let u go.. i will love u with all the love i can give... i will be the best and most relaible car u can drive.. i will be the car that doesnt need maintaince but frqunent rub and wash is greatly appreciated..hha i will be the man or boy u want me to be and to lead u thru this relationship... u are important val sooooooooo important.. andi can never emphasis that enuf.. sweetie when u read till tis point know that ure daarl is right now missing u... and i just wanna say i love u...bllow me a nice kiss k... muaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkkss!!

Berlin.. lets march onwards!!

Sweetie, with regards to ure previous post its ok for u to call later... theres nothing to apologise about.. as long u are safe and sound.. i m happy.. happy as the hippo.. may i quote from the movie "along came polly". haha... well i just wish ure friend well now... gosh i could only imagine how difficult it is for her... so sweetie its prefectly ok to spend time consoling ure friend. btw.. i have a friend whos not a jerk.. i think he will be a perfect bf... so interested applicants may apply.. hes tall and handsome.. very nice too,, haha

alright enuf said, i have been plannin, researchin, staring at God knows how many hrs on the computer screen with regards to the germany trip thats comin up for my val. i wanna make it the most fun most interesting, and something she never ever experience before. tho at this point of time.. i m also not to sure wat to expect from my plan but i kinda have a tingly feelin its gonna be lotsa fun.. be it walkin ard berlin or stayin indoors in the (may i quote again from my darl) "quirky"hostel.. THe Odysee, the name of tthe hostel that we are gonna stay in... from the looks of it.. i think its a lil over the top kind of craziness we have there, but nevertheless, in the spirit of tryin new things always, me and val thinks that it would be in our best interest to stay in this hostel.. just for the fun, and just to experience the "true backpacking" phenomenon.. we are gonna spend xmas there, so i m kinda expectin a kinda of xmas countdown party there.. just me and my gal, val.. with strange and quirky ppl we never met.. in a faraway land... i do hope for me and val.. it will be a great experience!!... btw at this point of time upon readin this post.. i have already paid a downpayment for the place.. yes the hostel room is offically mine haha.. complete with bath and all... double bed... its gonna be cosy darlin.. cooooozzzzzyyyeeee... read my lips haha.. wooo getting a lil edgy here.. my neck a bit stiff haha

fun matters aside, today i got a call from my darling, she was considerably upset, cos someone came and lookfor her, "the u know who who cannot be named" (sound like harry potter huh haha). i was angry... who in the world have the guts to upset my gf, it was seriously way out of line for "the u know who who canoot be named" to come uninvited to her home and interuppt her peace.. gosh i would have him put away if i was there, for harrassment. I just hope that "the u know who who cannot be named" understand that things have changed and its really time to moved on, no point cryin over spilled milk now, not that i wanna be cruel and say "boy.. give it up" but honestly if ure presence cos such a upset, any sensible human would back off and really just let time heal.. if things go ssmoothly, everyone can still be friends, instead of enemies.. well i just wish him the best and may he find himself soon and pull hinself up of this slump... be confident my friend.. someone will open the door for u... but now.. this door is closed... and i wanna tell u babe.. i will take care of u to the very very besst of my ability and may God guide me to show us the way... i wanna be a light for u thru dark tunnels and be a pillar of strength for u in every single aspect.. be it spiritual, emotional, phyiscal, mental.. i will be there (like the song sang by jackson 5) "i´ll be thereeeee.. just call my nameeee, i ´ll be there"
dun sweetie at any point of time think that i m like or similar to others, cos everyone is unqiue and lets have an analogy, i m the key u are the lock, many keys can come by and try to see if they can unlock the lock but not every key can turn the lock, andi like to say i m the key to turn ure lock, and yap i gonna put super glue to glue those two together haha, every key have different characteristics, no two are the same, just as no two locks are the same too. iwanna discover ure uniquness over time and i know there are more to come.

its funny to hear u say things like " its the first time someone ever do something or say something like these to me" its not i dun believe u when u say that u have lotsa of "first time" with me, but i m alwys bewilddered watever is goin on wit the other humans u were with, they either treat u as a disposable item or they are too timid to do things for u.. i would like to believe its the latter cos if they think u are displosable, i beg to differ.. i like to think u are the ring in "lord of the rings", u are my precious, simply irresistable!!!

so lets continue this assumption that they are too timid, gosh.. i just hope they would one day realise its not how cool and hot u are, its wat u do for the one u love for the moment, many ppl often realised something is precious after they lose that something, so i believed that i should show my appreciation before it gets too late, not when i lose something then i go beggin for it back... that shows i m just another sore selfish loser,,, so sweetie.. i m gonna be lovin u all the time, every moment counts, every tots every teardrop and every smile.

so yap... berlin and germany is gonna be fun... cant wait for u to be here with me.. i saidwat i want to say today, quoting from my pastor " i write myself happy today" i m hapy woth val and i really want to make her my darlin wife soon, so watch for this space.. gosh i m quoting again... hahha well ok... watch for this space cos somethings is cookin............. (chickenrice!! not!!) haha

okok serious serious.............. i love u hon... and u ill never walk alone.. muack!!!

Im so sorry to make u worry hon!!!!!!!!!

i came back from prata... showered, and saw my friend online who's in some kind of plight. and i chatted with her.. was suppose to call al. but guess my friend came first cuz she's really really in deep shit.. al wld agree with me too!

moments later. i rcved a call frm al, he sounded so worried!!! but relieved at the same time.. he couldnt enjoy his dinner and he was pacing up and down.. :( i felt so guilty!!! i apologized profusely for making him worried n all.. but he wasnt the least bit angry.. he was just relieved that im fine.. cuz it was so late and ive yet 2 call him etc.. im so terribly sorry 2 make him worry...

But its nice 2 have someone so concerned bout me. feel so happy.... having someone 2 constantly watch over me and love me unconditionally... this feeling is simply overwhelming.

Thank you Hon...
For everything.

Its Raining.. its cold.. its wet out there in germany.. and Al's all alone =(

Wish time would "fastforward" to the 18th Dec.. where i can FINALLY Fly all the way to Germany and meet al.. Then after all that fun we've had in germany, we can head back to Singapore together, and we'd never ever stay apart from each other again ! haha...

A short entry for now.... Been really busy these days.. tryin to catch up with studies (while having to satisfy my minimum 10 hrs of sleep each day)... Kinda tough.. Nevertheless, would like to thank al for being there for me always, encouraging me, giving me the drive to carry on with studies.. as well as enforcing PUNISHMENTS!! 100situps?? gosh.. i beta get back to studies before he makes me do them...

Al's a wonderful bf!! there are so many so many things he do which makes me love him much much much much more... He said its only normal for guys to do such things.. and ive been short changing myself. Perhaps. But it doesnt matter, cuz now, ive got him, and him and him and only him. I feel blessed to have him in my life. Through the dark and bad times.. the happy times... everything.

I wana make him feel loved.. No idea how i can go about doing it.. but.. im just gona be myself =) .. here's a secret to a happy relationship.. never force yourself to do things for ur other half.. if u dont feel like doin it.... let go.. let loose.. and let the love flow...

My love for al.... he'd feel it =)
Just like how i feel his love for me.


MuaKz!!! missin ya lots sweetie..
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Sun, it was Church day..

Sun, 13th of August, i opened my eyes.. turn towards the side of my bed... pickin up my k750i sony ericsson phone.. " gosh its nine plus already, hmmm its sg time 3plus.. gosh hows my darling doin at service today" i thought.. i wondered wat was it like every single moment for her as she strutted in to suntec... i wondered if she had found her way into the main audi together wif her cousins.. gosh its always so difficult to get in.. even a seasoned pro i m.. after years of intense stealth trainin.. it was still a hassle for me to get into church wo a tad of a trouble... so i just wish it could be a breeze for her... hmmm i was thinking about yiweti.. whther he could meet my darling just to say hi.. apart from my darl.. and family.. i trust him the most.. so i know he will make val comfy in church... alright i shall send an sms to sweetie pie and ask her how is it goin??.. but i m sure things are well.. i know God will send his angels to bring all who yearns to go to church.. safely to church.. and nonetheless, my sweetie pie too.. gosh i miss church i miss smelling the thick aroma of coffee as i walk past starbucks and the ever so inviting smell of kenny rogers as i make my way to the lift at the basement.. where i will meet many churchgoers like myself.. many whom i never met.. prob just sun christians like myself haha.. takin time off just to feel holy for a day.. haha nonetheless its not wat we do.. its wat our heart felt.. and i know i m gonna be blessed cos i chose to go to church and listen to the ever so precious word of our Jehovah Jireh.. the provide.. eilahim... the one who saves...

Emotions rose inside me.. i felt a strong desire inside me to make my way to church.. but here i m, deep in the heart of Germany.. away from loved ones.. friends and her.. .my lovely wife val...

In afternoon after goin about my week intense train.. or so i like to call it... al's secret training haha... i jogged i think 3km i suppose... did more sets of pushups situps biceps curls and dips.. and never forgetting 16pull ups.. it was tortuous but the endorphins release was fantastic. i m a sadist i m crazy to torture myself like tat haha...

lunch was gd.. instant noodles but took me back to the days where its just me myself and alvin.. in my hostel room where i got simply no one to eat out wif me in the wee hrs haha... well it was tasty.. the noodles i mean... after lunch i took a shower.. lookin at the mirrior.. i told my image.. u are blessed. u are the glory of God and thank u Lord for blessin me with good looks amen ahha.. vain but nevertheless i just want God to bless me in every area.. health wisdom prosperity looks relationship favor.. and i prayed for everyone else too my gal.. family her family.. me...

i called yiwei soon after i finsh everything and was in my friends room to watch the most important match yet... Liverpool vs Chelsea.... and guess wat.. liverpool won!!! yes.. we are the champions.. or should i say we will be... alway tot liverpool will be something oneday....considering their rich heritage.. i have been supporting liverpool since 1994.. havin lots of sticker books.. hmm and wat have u... i was a die hard.. but i have regret.. i will never conider myself as a true fan if i never step into Anfield.. the home of the liverpudians... you will never walk alone.. the chant of the great club rang in my ears.... i scolded for joy when we won.. tears of joy... while i was talkin to my darling!!.. .if only she saw that i had such joy when liverpool won.. haha

gosh sidetracked so much.. i was so glad to receive an sms from my darl that she went to the service.. she enjoyed it,, and even met wi yiwei.. but most importantly she is blessed!!! she went there and listen to the word of God and she is blessed and know she will continue to be bless cos a seed is sow in her heart and she will do all things knowin God is with her.. I LOVE U BABE.... love u so so so so so so so so so soso much.. muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... i wanna kiss u everywhere´hug u so so so so so so so so so tight not letting u go.. gonna carry u up in my arms and swing u all ard... then just gonna snuggle wif in bad till the cows come home... i m an animal.. grrrrrrrrr.. hahha

The talk wif my darl was great... we had laughters, laughters of joy that is.. we poke fun at one another... this is wat i always wanted.. to just be so myself in a r\s.. free to say wat i want to her.. and vice versa.. i mso glad she is comfortable wif things now.. after all we are only 1month and 12days old.. i want it to be 100years and 12 months old haha... i think one thing great about her is her abiltiy to see things in the optimistic light and her lightheartedness.. takin things easy is the way to go and dun be too hard on ureself... i m always like tat too.. thats y i think we are a perfect match... she is a gal u can have fun wif... get in troubl wif and later laugh it off and a gal thats clever intellectual.. havin a independent mind of her own....wat a great gal she is.. and i m happy taht she is my gal... ahhhh, makes me nostalgia about the song "my gal... my gal.... do odododoo" gosh i fogot the lyrics.. well anway alls well and ends wel.... alvin... out...

MUACKSSSSSSSS!

I LOVE U!!!

Quantana Mera...

*listening to gold90 fm now and the south american song was ringing in my left ear, quantana mera.... quantanammmmmerrrra... oh oh oh quantanameraaaa... haha.. missing my gf right this instance... aaarrrrr wat a wonderful feelin to know tat val my gal is my gal.. haha dunno wat other waay to say it nicer... (oh now james cullum is sounding at my ears... everlasting love..) yessss... everlasting love... it will be with my precious val... she is so pretty.. so beautiful... u know... alwys wanted a gal like her... and here i m... she is mine now... still quite a dream ah ahaha... hmmm today is national day.. just so glad she got a break cos she needs it... she says she is goin out with her mom... wow he gal is sweet ya,,, not many gals like to hang out wif thier parents.. and she is such a homely gal... its so great to know... hmmm wonder how was their dessert treat at ah chew dessert.. hopefully they like it.. gosh i miss the desserts so much... i wanna go back there ahhhhh...

Val yesterday mention again she wants me as her hubby.. and i feel so gd reading that msg she sent me.... gosh i want so much too.. to be my wifey... oh gosh i love her so so so so much and i want this feelin and love to stay like this forever.. sweetie.. while u are reading this i prepared yet another lil something for u... this time i will keep it really quiet ahha.. tho i know u super gian now..

haha... i hope u have had a wonderful national day babe.. i love u.. muaacckkk!!!!!!!!!!!

Crazy for u..

its wed again.. wow, time really really flies when everything seemed to go really well for me and of cuz val and me.. wat more can i ask for.. got a beautiful gf... tall leggy, sweet.. playful.. she is anything i want my ideal partner to be... hurrr. so gald.. soso glad i found her at a place where i never tot it was possible.. i love u babe..

hot hot hot

haha oh with regards the msn incident i was terribly sorry.. super remorseful.. i m just so thankful tat its all fine now... haha like wat val said.. everything both of us said wasnt exactly taken the right way so hence the lil heat... haha.. thats y i always emphasis.. it is very mportant to have communication in a relationship.. and i m glad me and val are sharing everything underthe sun... its like, i never open my heart to someone so much before and turst me. val my divalicious val.. is indeed the first one..

sorry sweetie for yeserday but honestly i just like u being u.... i love every thing about u.. the way u talk.. walk... sleep... whine.. pout.. ahah esp pout.. i just melt when u pout hha... i love it too when u *ahem too haha.. ok not tellin anyone wat it is.. bascially dun u worry bout a thing.. i love u just he way u are... my vivalicious and divalicious and sometimes bimbotic val... hee

anyway my gal is so funny... but i m happy.. she is so happy i sent for a card... i mean... its only right i did so.. cos i love her and its takes not much effort... andi glad she likes it cos it means a whole to me tat she is happy.. and i m gonna keep this up.. today.. tomolo and the day after and the day after and the day after... hahah and i will put our oic up everywhere k.. cos i m sos soso proud of u..


i m glad she really feel so blissful.. this is he feelin i m tryin to create for her and i hope she will always feel this way.. and God.. pls anoint me wit hwisdom and favour to guide her and keep our love buring super strong amen!!!!


oh. haha she really sounded like a poet isnt it.... in her last blog... haha.. i tot i was reading jane austen haha... pride and prejudice... oh ya.. was watchin "u got mail" yesterday and feel realy inspire to go thru the book by jane austen all over again haha... felt so in love wif val..

alright gonna leave things like this cos i wanna tok to her already... so until next blog!!!! i love u val!!!

Yet another Monday

Guess some words cant be expressed via MSN. i said something over MSN, and Al reacted/commented bout it. To be honest, the word i use sounded rather crude. Guess it isnt exactly pleasing to the ears. Al's perfectly fine with it. I took it the wrong way. The way he said it on MSN made it seem as tho he was repremanding me.

I hate it when people comment on the way i speak the way i do things or walk or eat or anything!! Always feel that i am who i am.. BUT i do act according to circumstances too larr. When im with my friends/family/loved ones, i just wana behave the way i am. Without pretense. Its so uptight in the corp world, where everyone basically acts. i can act too. Im good at it infact. (al says i play mind games tho i INSIST i dont! haha).. Dont see a point in acting infront of my closest person tho.

Felt as tho he was rejecting me and the way i speak. honestly if he minds, i would hold my tongue and try to speak in a prim n propper way.. i can always tryyy... but that wont be me anymore. it'll be something like a mutated val... or.. retarded val... or speech impairment val.. something like that. haha... But we sorta cleared the air.. He doesnt mind me being the way i am, infact he likes it! and im really thankful.. *sigh of relief* i dont curse and swear. i just tend to be more vocal and my words tend to be carry more vocality and its usually a lil mmm... non conventional? baHhh... Ive gotta speak prim n propper to customers the whole day.. cant i just let loose a lil?? =( Nevertheless, Al doesnt mind, al likes it.. soooo val's happy with it =) end of story! hahaha

Ohhhh!! al sent me an E-card today! soooo sweet of him!!!! its always me sending ecards, its nice to receive one for a change. The card's bout missing me through every weather.. =) **melts** ohh what's more! he changed his MSN pic to a pic of OURS! WOW!!!!! ok ok.. that may be extremely normal for everyone else.. but NO! it means a hell lot to me.. no guy has ever done that!!!! his msn nick has got "val" his photo has got "val"... he really isnt ashamed 2 show me to everyone on his contacts.. hope he understands that by doing that, he really is gona exit from bachelorhood. =P i feel so blissed, i feel so happpieeee, i feel, complete.

Complete's prolly the best word to describe how i feel when ive got Al in my life.. I have happy/sad/anxious/teary times but never once did i feel lonely. i feel as tho my life has been made full.. And with god in our lives... all things are made better! =)

Its raining heavily here... Just witnessed the beauty and power of nature..... the power of god, the creator. Stood by the balcony witnessing it all... First it was all still. then the leaves started rustling.... the skys turned orangey, trees were swaying to and fro in unison... then the clouds came... rain trickled down... came in pours... wind whistled pass my ears.. felt a chill... spashed a lil on my face... wind kept hounding... and i started feeling chilly.. There were a couple of thoughts in my mind.... It must have took a mighty creator to come up with such feat... It was beautiful to simply watch nature do it's "stunt"... Also wondered if it was just as cold and chilly in germany now.. If it was... is al feeling cold?? Wished al was right here with me, hugging me, and we'd be watching the storm go by together... in each other's warmth.. We'd be together soon enough..

Thank you god, for creating such a wonderful world, thank you god for giving me Al, Thank you god for keeping us together, Thank you god for allowing me to bring in the clothes in time so mummy wont have to wash it again, Thank you god for the many many things which ive taken forgranted and never given thanks

Gona call al soon.. hope he's home =)

a short one for now

Al's prolly on his way to work.... gave him a morning call! felt so nice to hear his voice right before bed... and call him to wake him up the nxt morn despite us being so far apart

had nice conversations with him last nite.. haha.. new experiences... in more ways than one..

Its MONDAY!! and hope al wont be feeling all bluish.. cuz val loves him! =)

im back to doing my sch stuff.. got quite abit to catch up now.. blog later.. =)

I LOVE U TOO VAL!!!

wow wow wow... i just wanna say i have a fantastic morning tokin to val... then moments later and then moments later too.. ahah.. like she said, it felt like sg.. like she is just nearby and reportin to me wat she is doin every single... i m so happy with her.. the thing is.. i alwys like it when my gal comes to me for support, for aid.. like when she have problems wif her work earlier.. she would just call me and whine haha.. and i love every moment of it.. not tat i m a super sadistic guy who awaits every single moment she is upset.. but i just feel so appreciated and so needed when she calls and just want me to hear her out.. to quote from the movie "the last samurai".. i m honored to be there for her.. honored to be the one she goes to when she is down or happy..it is really a privillege cos.. for someone to open her heart and depend on me.. its really not easy.. and i appreciate and enjoy every moment with her....

i m happy she thinks i m the most perfect man out there.. haah perfect for her lah.. enuf already.. i dun need to gain attention from other gals.. tho its a flattery.. but i rather them save me the trouble cos at the end of the day..i just want my one and only vivalicious val!!!

Val dun worry k.. i m indeed ures and ures only!!

My val dun have to buck up.. any more bucking up will prob cos me to have a nose bleedin all the time haha.. cos too sexy too hot.. too cute too gd to be true and too nice already.. hhaa and most importanty too pretty already.. but then again who doesnt mind a wifey getting prettier by the day ahaha.. so go ahead sweetie.. i just leave the power in re hands.. u want to doll up.. just go ahead.. wif or wo.. i love every single thing about u!!!!


oh with regards to helpin her do work.. aiya.. i m just itchy fingers.. i always like to write, edit and all.. i dun even fell any brian cells died cos i m doin it for love.. and for my sometimes bimbotic val.. haha alright.. she is prob off to work.. just wanna say i miss her and hearing her voice never fails to make my day.. i wanna stay like this lovin her.. forever!!!

i love u Val!!

I love AL

I Love u AL!!!

Just hung up with Al... he's at home and i can call him cheaply... feel so happy that i can just call him anytime and just chat with him.. feels as tho he's in SG. He's words are so sweet tt it gives me diabetes! hahhaa... nahh not the "flowery" words, but words of truth... which seem extremely pleasing to the ear. haha

When he tells me bout other girls liking him... i feel a tad jealous. why? cuz i know he's like the most perfect guy out there.. and there're prolly a million other girls dying to have him!! im in a dangerous situation i tell u.... Now i feel as tho i struck 4D! haha... ive got HIM!! yay!!! So... All other girls, back off! he's mine. and MINE only.

Shall have to buck up, and be al's perfect girl... stroke his ego, make him happy, be more caring and understanding, be prettier, cuter hotter sexier, hahaha.. then other girl NO FIGHT! =P So Al's gona be all mine.

Why i love him so much? Cuz he's there for me when im down, he automatically helps me with work without me asking, he's expressive, tells me the truth, shows his vulnerable side, loves me for who i am, dont mind my nonsense, appreciates things i do for him, tells me things he wana do with me when im in germany making me so excited, he goes tru great lengths to make sure i wont have a tough time "communicating" with him, cuz i can put myself in his shoes and he puts himself in mine, because he loves me. many many many more reasons. but for now. ive gota go do my work..

LOVE u AL..... =)

Emotional Roller Coaster

This post was typed over a period of time.. showing the emotional roller coaster which i went tru. Its First part's BLUE cuz i was feeling all down n blue.. 2nd part's in green, cuz i felt sick.. disgusted and sick, third's in RED, cuz im fuming and really angry... Next was brown.. cuz i was simmering down already thinking tru things.. and cooling it.. Last part's PURPLE! my fave col (for now).. cuz all's well and im okae.. hehe

oh... do note the parts in ORANGE. and detect the irony! hah


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Im so disturbed now.. I cant seem to get Al anywhere!! =(

He slept at bout 8am SG time, and i didnt wana disturb his "beauty" sleep. Hence i refrained from sms-ing him, incase he gets disturbed by the constant beeping sound. When i finally sms-ed him at 3pm, there was no reply... Wasnt expecting to reply.. but i had a gut feel that he hasnt even read the msg.

Called his SG line, and Germany home line, Germany Mobile line. All off!
Went home.. tried again.. and again and yet again... But still off!!! My last resort... was to sms both his Germany Home and Mobile number, hoping that he at least know that im missing him, and at the same time worried bout him... so he can just switch on his hp and id know that he's FINE...

No doubt he's far away in Germany, i always felt that we were still "connected" internet/mobile etc.. Im really troubled now. cuz it seems like ive "lost touch" of him.. He's supposed to go out with his friend today.. Or has he already left, and just forgot 2 turn on his hp? Or reception problem? phone problem? batt low?? I hate waiting for people without nowing where they are or wat they're doing.. or if they're even safe and alive! i am so so so so worried... and upset!

Oh god.. please dont let anything happen to him... please please please...



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Many Moments later

He replied my SMS. he's safe.. PheWww.. forgot to give me another number of his... RIGHT!!! now that he's safe... ......

ITS MY TURN TO GET MAD!!!
walao ehhh !!! to think i was worried bout him for so long! feel stupid. shallnt worry in future! hmph!! I shld have expected such occurence since he's So far away. Im feeling the distance already. ugh.

sick feeling in my gut!! think its cuz i was overly worried..
Al's a big boy man!

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After calling him...

He's Fine... he's prolly walkin around having fun n all while I WAS being so worried here.
He apologized as he has too many numbers and he overlooked it. Point taken, apology accpeted.

But Aparently, i dont the he got the picture. Imagine if u've got a girlfriend.. in a faaarrr away land, and you know she's unfamiliar with the place, tho she's goin out with a friend.. and all of a sudden u cant get her at ANY number... u keep trying and trying.. u simply CANT get tru. U've got no idea what's happening.. or if she's safe, or raped or having fun or what...

HOW WOULD U FEEL!

I was just worried mahhhh.
Small matter u say?? right. how but I go missing for some time then?? Al cant see me online, cant get tru my mobile, no sms reply blah blah blah. Lets see how he feels then.

Damn it. i should i even be worried and so concerned?? I shld just hack it and do my own stuff dont worry bout him, dont care bout him, as tho im leading a single life, and dont give a damn and worry bout other ppl, and start taking care of myself!

I cant and i dont want to cuz i love him, and with love comes concern. He knows im angry after the brief. and he didnt even msg me to ask if im ok or stuff like that. Should i msg him? or shld i ignore him? Wait, angry's a wrong word... More like anxious, and agitated.. yeah.. He knows im agitated... Guess he didnt sms n all cuz he's out with his friend lar.

I shall refrain from saying more stuff which may hurt both him and myself.. it sounds nonsensical! Silence is indeed golden. Having second thoughts bout him... He may not be what he portrays himself to be. He may not be what i think he is...

baHhh.. i still love him. Just dont wish to talk to him now... nor tonight.. nor tomorrow.. nor the day after... and the day after after. *whines* (sigh... at least until i simmer down. Which is in no time lar...)

Perhaps if he has a taste of wat he feels like.. den he'd understand why i got so agitated. He said it as tho i was at fault to be agitated... In normal circumstances.. who wouldnt! Alright, u wana try it?? Den lets do it. **Irritated**

right.. i sms-ed him earlier and he didnt reply. whatever lar. i dont care. Just wasted my idd bills for nothing. only to make myself feel worst. I rather i felt worried all along. than feel "THIS" (whatever im feelin now)... I havent had bfast nor lunch... and i dont even have the appetite for dinner. im feeling so so so sick...

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He replied, asking me not to be so agitated, and that he's sorry... DOES HE EVEN KNOW WHY IM AGITATED??? This feelings were from my pent up worry.... He doesnt know why no no no he doesnt.. he said he didnt do it on purpose (giving me this number), but its not bout that! does he even understand!? i dont think so man...

Then he askes me not 2 b upset as he's preparing a suprise for me... gosh.. then val "chui" already... i lost. My determination stands until now only... Rem when i said i wont talk to him now, later, tomorrow, the day after and the day after after? yeah. My anger so over within afew mins. *tsk* useless.

He said hope id say "I love u" to him as well the next time i talk to him/see him... i will not will not not not not so not! I am not gona sms him nor say anything. NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT Not at all!! (lets see how far my determination lasts this time) sigh... im a softie lar.. always say say only.. end up, afew mins later.. also forget how mad i was already.. sigh. i know myself.. Im a person of no peseverence/determination, my temper may be bad, but it blows over in like.. 2 mins?? and when im in a bad mood, break down area of my behaviour are as follows:

Real shouting/ argument: 2%,
Crying: 28%
Ignoring: 5%
Pouting: 30%
Whining 35%

see, ive got a temprement of a golden retriever. hah!!
Ok ok ok... im feeling all better already... Been trained by exs.... ive got an "auto-heal" function.. hahaa i dont need ppl to cheer me up when im down or anything... cuz i would automatically feel betta after which. why? cuz there's no point in waiting 4 guys 2 cheer u up when u're down or even if they're at fault. they prolly never would. Fat hope. However.... i think al's an exception. i think he would. Just that he isnt around now. So benefit of doubt! =)

**i looovee u hon** no matter how agitated u make me


P/S: think he msged me immediately after the phone call, i didnt recieve it.... hence, sent him a very "cool" sms... only to see his original sms, and another sms sayin he'd talk to me tonight... argh... im a gonner. how can!!! so soft at heart!!! i shld at least b "pissed" till tomorrow... but it isnt his fault mah.. so why am i pissed? right!? =D its always a virtue to be understanding. Guys would always love their gf to be understanding.... I always jump 2 conclusions.. but im rational too lar... =) (ok im gona sms him now... sayin i love him and im ok lar..) WALAO!!!! just MINS ago i said i wont sms him!!! hahhaa

think tis post is kinda interesting... shows many emotions within a short timeframe.

a beautiful day......

My dear "strwberry cupcake sweete pie and very divalicious but sometimes bimbotic" val, i just wanna declare my love to u again.. u are the sweetest thing that happened to me...... just wanan tell u how happy m i to be able to get the fixed line where i can just tok to u for hrs ans hrs without fearing for the cost.... gosh i had the most wunderbar conservation with u yesterday...... i realise we both really like to do things pretty much the same way hahah.. u know wat i mean.... and i really really cant wait for God to fast forward the time so that u will be here. But like all gd things... this has to wait... and when it happens.. there is gonna be a huge huge fireworks like never before hahah... i feel things are goin very well for me... got a wonderful gf.. she must be still playin mj now.. hope she will win some money... hurrr.. actually i can play buti m just not gd,, hurr... but anyway thats beside the point.. just wanna say she is sucha wonderful gal.... sorry guys.. she is mine.. all mine!!!, ahem* (maintaining composure), i m glad that i m finally finding my close friends now... i got my hall in sg... family is gut.... church is farway but i think of worshippin in church everyday and i listen to sermons everyday.. just tat when is my sermons coming in..?????!!! hahah but its ok.. i just wanna give thks to every single lil thing i have now.. yes.. there are past mistakes but they are all in the past and i have to look towards the future.. and the future now.. i only know.. is very very bright... and in no time i will have all my loved ones with me again.. and esp my dear wifey to be.. val... i love her so so soso soso sososo much.. dun worry u wont wait to long ya... haha.. i also wanna tie u up soon hurrr... i miss u sweetie.. whenever i call u out of the blue.. that is when i miss u the most... gosh its gettin colder by the day and i cant wait to get under the sheets with u... tho the bed is small but i m sure it will be super cosy for us... sweetie when u are on the roads or on the bus on ure way to and from school.. think of me... cos i m thinkin of u too at the same moment and time... haha.. alright i shall hear from u later ya.. gonna work on my award winnin prj now... another hour to lunch.. yay.. ich bin sehr hungrig.....!!!!

from ure lil al... lovin u to bits

feeling still a lil out of sorts.....

The cold lonely night has passed away to another cold wet gloomy lonely morn.. i woke up to a msg from my sweetie pie.. sayin all is well again.. sayin she is fine... she sounded fine over the msg... and in the subsequent msg.... but i feel still a lil terrible inside..... i still feel i wanted to know wat wrg tat made my darling a lil upset yesterday...... i could only but guess the reason....i guess i m the sort that wants to get to the bottom of things.. just didnt want things to miraculous become ok the next day.. i want to solve problems.. be it the smallest of all probs....... gosh anyway it was a terrible night for me..i wish i didnt even go to my friend´s place, shld just go home and all would be well...... i miss my darling lots and lots and i really detest the feelin when i have to go to bed feelin down and things are left hanging........ her gdbye yesterday was a ili haste and different and it rang in my ears as i took the train back home..... grr.i could only replay videos of her smiling at me to make me feel better...... hurrr. so alright.... at least i thank god she is a wonderful kind of gal tht forgives easily and forget.......... i like her attitude.... and i truly truly love her to bits........ but yeap... thats how i feel today........ and i wanna tell her.. she is always first in my priority and i will never put her in second place...... cos i m relly really in love wif her......and i want to know and understand truly how she feels all the time, the reason she felt that way and everthing..........................

My heart is always wanting the best of u

cos u are my one and only, just like u say i m to u.....

A little this a little that.. i wish i could make things better..

hi sweetie.. this is for u u u..... hmmm first of all, now its is prob almost 5 in the morning over at sg......... hurr.. just came back and in my friends room now... so happy he haven sleep so i can write a bit here... i m a lil drenched, a lil tired and a lil sad....... but i m never a lil in love wif u.......

I LOVE U SWEETIE

PLS FORGIVE ME TODAY....Dun be a lil disappointed nor peaved nor unhappy k... muacks!!!!!!

from ure lil al......

there are lots of things i needed to add but all the font came out wrg.....gosh why man why...... grrrrrr.. sweetie i just wanna say thks for the suprise..... i will update this page more when i get access to my com....

my FLOWERS!!

Happy 1 month!! Yes Yes. I said that in yesterday's post. Here's what Al got me!!! i tell u.. they're the most beautiful flowers ever! They look so Vibrant.. So BEAUTIFUL!!!

These flowers suits my mood perfectly! They're right beside me as i blog.. and can even smell the faint scent of flowers.

Thank You for not forgetting despite being so faraway.. and for taking the effort to make sure everything turns out right! Having beautiful flowers only made my day partially.. its having it from HIM and HIM taking the effort that touched my heart. Even teared a lil when i rcved it. =P shallnt go into the details. hah

Al sent me an SMS this afternoon while i was out shopping. He read my prev blog entry, and he loved it.. Felt really touched. In his own words, he said: "your word.. over and over again.. it just makes me fall in love with you again and again... Never had such feelings before.... etc"

Never knew my words had such power. Its an exhilarating feeling to know that the entry which i stayed up so late for wasnt for nothing. He felt Loved... or rather.. he fell in love with me again. I evoked feelings which he never had. That was a kind of satisfaction, ive always desired. The ability to make my man feel loved, desired, all feel powerful.. Think ive said it somewhere before.. But, leme say it again... In My eyes.. Al's Everything...

His SMS made this "happy 1 month" a really HAPPY 1 MONTH. The beautiful flowers brought a smile to my face... But your truthful and touching words... Brought a smile to my heart. Something which would never fade.. Never burn out.

Hope things would go well for u back there in Germany, with all those project u've got at hand. Thankyou for always talkin 2 me online despite you having things 2 do... Appreciate it hon. And thankyou for sayin that you'd always share whatever you've got with me. That was really comforting 2 hear. Id be that lil lady behind you.. in whatever you do. =)

1 Month... =)

This is the 3rd week for me too. its another *counts calender* 19 to 20 weeks before i embark on my journey to GERMANY. =) It's a long long but not so lonely wait.

Al's constantly living up to his word being the assurer, my comforter, smile maker, teaser, not to mention him being my hope, my joy, and my daily delight. He's like a famous amos cookie to mee after my bitter medication. Like the long hot shower after a tiring day of work. In short, i just want to end every single day speaking to him, and with him on my mind.

Here's good news, Al managed to get a space in the HALL NEXT SEM!!! with a close friend of his which wld b doin his IA tis comin sem, and yiwei his bud wld prolly b stayin in, and im sure yiwei wont mind me popping over! =) in short, we're gona be staying NEAR each other! or else.. the distance is really gonna be super far. Potong Pasir to Jurong West. No joke man... This is one big issue settled. Was really praying hard that god would somehow show the way.. And he did! =)

Main Topic of the day? IT's our ONE MONTH ANIVERSARY!! Im talk alot, blog alot, i know, but id never be able to churn out wonderful posts like al does. He writes of our relationship in a poetic way, where i can just MELT... i tend to write things in a more factual fashion. Hope i aint boring him. I aint gona compete with him in writing the nicest words. Id simply prepare my "gift" and "suprise" for him, which would come verrryy soon!

My Al
My Mr tall guy, the cutie that was helping me look for boxers in NUM. First time i whined to him, was when he said there was no size. It was subtle whining, but guess i caught his attention. The next time i popped by, he recognized me! was plesantly suprised he did... Felt honored that sucha cute guy remembers me too!! I just kept finding excuses to pop by NUM, take a sneak peek at that handsome fella. Prisc asked which i prefered. The choice was obvious. He's the one!! Our closest physical encounter, was when he helped me keep my bag in his store room, we were standing so close to one another.... So close... i knew we both wanted to stand much closer... at least i felt the need... the sudden surge to see how does his chest feel against my face.. to smell his scent... we wanted to... but there were constrains.

So how in the WORLD was i gona get his number???? Now this is tough. after meeting for afew times, and if this guy has YET to get my number, my chances are diminish by the second. i had to act!! Deviced a poly... Walked around with my handphone. making it OBVIOUS, and REMINDING HIM that i had a handphone!!! and it was time for him 2 ask for my NUMBER. HE DID!! HE DID!!! i acted coy.. and just keyed in the digits. My heart was sWoooning i tell u.. but i had to CONTROL... couldnt msg him immd could i? didnt want him to feel proud or things of the sord. So i controled and msged im hours later at night! hah!! How he felt, only he would know.. But things took a bullet train from there on.

We were sms-ing each other like no body's business... throughout the World cup matches, at night, in the day... at work.. We went on a Date even! 2nd July. 1 month ago. The day Al claims that im his Gal... We went to harry's bar at the esplanade. had a couple of drinks... Had a romantic stroll by the Singapore River... and i swear magic happens there!! a couple of drinks, sea breeze, 2 ppl who were drawn to each other in facination... The love blossomed with our first kiss. I still cant believe i was the one who liked arms with him first!! Ok.. i believe in taking "action".. or he'd be Taken!

I fell sick soon after... broke up woth my bf.. not entirely cuz of al.... but he was the driving force... I didnt even know if we'd b together. but i felt that my heart was already with al, and there's no way i wana continue in a relationship where only i put in effort.. Al heard of the terrible news, and decided to come by my place that night. I was sick... and he said he wanted to take care of me. I need the company for sure. Not any company, but HIS. He's the FIRST guy to ever stay over at my house. i never dared ask mum. but that night, we simply slept with the doors open. He slept on the floor, me on the bed. At times he'd sit up and watch me sleep, at times, he'd just hold my hands. i knew i was really really Hooked this time... That week passed really quickly. That was prolly the only week we spent together as a couple. But we did so many stuff! we went tanning, i crashed his lect, walked around NTU... The week after.. or rather, 2 days before his departure, i gave him his farewell gift. An unforgettable gift... I gave him a MEMORY!.... (Im sure u know where im refering to hon..).. Soon after. He left.

His departure did not signify the dwindling of our relationship. Just the opposite infact... our feelings grew... love grew.. and we're now an indespensible part of each other's life....

The story's just in the making of our life story.. i repeat OUR life story. Not his, nor mine.

You my love... i promise to always love you, respect you, and honor you. You are the closest person to my heart. For you... Anything's possible. I cant write beautiful words like yours... I hope the bare truth can still touch your heart =) My words represent me... i present MYSELF to you. No pretense. no Falsified answers. Just the one and only Val. Your words represent Hope, assurance and confidence to me... Which is what i need! Help me to be the girl u want me to be Al... I want to be what you want me to be.. (but at the same time being myself) tough?? haha..

Gona call u now! i love u! =) its only the 1st month.. there's gona be the 2nd.. 3rd.. 4th.. and we'd spend the 5th together!!! as well as the many many more Precious time we've got together.

Through the distance between us... i learnt the value of having you close by my side.

I love you.

I m Just thankful...2

This is beginning of the third week for me now..... gosh.. i m so glad somehow i feel my r/s with val has gone another level up... i dunno how.. but it seems like things are getting better and better now... we reassure one another,,, we poke fun at each other.... yeah i think all these all signs for a good r/s... that is going to Last...... now i just hope tat i m able to move near a friend´s rm where i can get internet access and i think this love between us is gonna blossom even more... cos i will get to blog properly and msn properly and skype even more properly..... wo interupption from ppl whom arent suppose to disturb me when i m talking to my pRecIOUS Val........ alright in this " I m Just thankful 2" edition.. i wanna say that val is a gal tat i have never met before in my life.. i mean till now of cos.. the thing is... she is so real.. yet so eleghant... so frank in her words yet always with a touch of warmth and love for me... i never ever imagine that at the end of everthing when i finally leave sg.. i would have been together with her.... i could never had imagine tat.. i mean.. i only tot she needed to get boxers when i saw her the first time.. and never had i tot it was a start to a beautiful.. heartwarming r/s... she is just a sweet gal ya.... so sweet tat i think i can get diabetes.. haha.. she is such a wonderful person,, the respect and honor she gives to her partner is amazing.. and i love her to bits for everything.. i honestly think that she is the best thing to happen to me.. and will be the last... cos i want her to be the last person tat will be with me... and i wanan give her all the happiness she deserves and desires for....

val.. i just cant and realise the fact u are with me... dun argue with me about this point that u are the one who cant believe it... honestly with ure qualities...... u could have been with any guy u want...... but i m the most blessed guy to be chosen by u...... omg.. i still cant believe tat when u took out ure hp tat day,, it was all a ploy.. but i cant help.. cant help but fall for it... i cant just let u slip away.. i want ure number... i wanted to be more than a customer and sales assistant with u..... i wanted to be with u......

and here we are....... together

against all funny odds...

i m thankful for such a expressive gf.. who do things with all her love for her bf... i like her when she says sometimes she is scared of her bf... but trust me.. i will never raise more than a hair on her... i love it when she pouts...... she just look so adorable tat i wanna go over there to hug her and hurrr.. ok lah disturb her and make her pout more...... i tell u... i just love her so much... and if anything or anyone want to bully her.. they are gonna get it from me... and i shall not pardon any sins against her haha....... she is just my PPPPPPRREEEECCCIOUSS...... hurr

I love her when she is serious too..... she just makes me want to look into her eyes and listen to wat she wants to say...

oh yesterday when she whined to me... i realised i also love her to whine at me....... oh man i just love every single little things that she do...... i love all about her i tell u.....as follows...

her eyes that look like doves

her hair thats messy yet so eleghant combed

her skin tats so silky soft

her face that is just so symetrically beautiful

her eyebrows tat are so well groomed

her legs that are as long as the great wall of china

and her figure tats so slim and perfect

i just love how she carrys herself......

sweetie.. i love u... more than u ever imagine...

when i m with u.. or toking to u..

the whole world fades and i cant help but fallin in love with u over and over and over and over again..

be with u.. all the time ya..

u and me..

we make great lovers, partners, companions and confidante

muacks

ich liebe sie....